Friday, July 22, 2011

Some days...

Some days I still wonder if we made a mistake buying this house we are in. It is so far out here. Yet it is such a beautiful area. We see deer everyday, we have a huge yard, a wonderful neighborhood to raise a family in. On the other hand, there are no kids (that we have met) that our kids can play with... Our water bill was 198.00 this month. I think the highest bill we ever had in our old house was 74.00. The yard is a ton of work. The drive to go anywhere take getting used to. We pay 64.00 a month towards an HOA and to be honest, i am not really sure where that money goes. Seems like a waste. Some days I wish we could just go back to March and rethink. Other days I feel like we really lucked out with all the equity we had in the old house to be able to be here now. This house will not be our last, just probably until the girls are out of highschool. Then, who knows where life will take us. Money is definately tighter. Not sure how long it will take us to really adjust to the new monthly budget... Today is just one of those days...

Monday, July 18, 2011

Quote of the day

Always make time for a friend in need even if you feel like you don't have any time for yourself. One day when the time comes that you need that extra love and support from someone it will be returned.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

“People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.”

If any of you keep in touch with me on a regular basis then you would know that my mom and stepdad got a divorce in March of 2010. It was no shocker to me, as it had been coming for sometime.

That year (2010) for Fathers Day I had not talked to my stepdad for awhile but I decided to be the bigger person. We made the effort to go to his apartment and see him and spend the day with him. Again after that, no effort was made on his end. That fall he moved back with my mom. We saw him at Christmas and again on Easter.

Then, come April 2011 he was gone again. He has yet to make any effort to see his two granddaughters, me, Derk, or my sister and brother. One day he will grow old and be a very lonely old man. I try to think back of any happy memories and really, there are not many. I do remember the times he treated my brother like a dog. Calling him "boy" instead of his actual name. Wacking him in the back of the head, making him gag down his dinner after he had already thrown it up. Weeks that passed where not a word was spoken between the two of us when I was growing up. Not sure why he was ever allowed to treat us that way. Oh and did I mention the times where we would be driving and he would get out of the car and start walking down the road. Us kids were left in the car screaming as my mom chased him down begging him to get back in and not to leave.

All the cruel things he said to my mother and all of the wonderful things he NEVER did for her. He was definately no role model. I would never want my son (if I had one) to every grow up and treat people the way he treated others. Even our friends were scared of him. He made no effort to be friendly or get to know any of them. He has 2 kids from a previous marriage who he has also disowned, as well as another grandchild from one of them who he has nothing to do with. He will be sorry one day, that I am sure of. When he is an old man and there is nobody there for him, but by then it will be too late.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Editing away

Nothing to exciting going on today. Derk went out of town and the girls and I went to the park and to lunch with my grandma "OMA". Derk is out of town until Wednesday so I thought I woul dedit some sessions tonight. I am so behind. Got about 5 pics done and look at the time, quarter after 11. Guess it's time to hit the sack. Tomorrow is a new daty. Hope I can fall asleep fast.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

It's raining, it's pouring...

Started to do some much needed work in the yard today. The girls were both sick last night throwing up and not much sleep was to be had. Instead of taking a nap like I should be doing right now, I am out in the yard like an idiot in this crazy rainstorm. Since it does not seem to be stopping I better head inside and save my project for a not so rainy day.