Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Quote of the day

They know me in a way no one ever has.

They open me to things I never knew existed.

They drive me to insanity and push me to my depths.

They are the beat of my heart, the pulse of my veins and the energy in my soul.

They are my kids.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Quote of the day..

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

― Bob Marley

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Today, I hugged a complete stranger...

Tonight at work, an older lady came in to buy a premie outfit. She seemed a little standoffish at first and I was hesistant to make conversation with her. I decided to start the conversation with, "who are you buying this for?" That was all it took for her to breakdown into tears. She proceeded to tell me that her daughter was pregnant with her first baby (and this grandmothers first grandchild) and that they found out last week that the baby has an extra chromosome (I didn't ask which one) which causes the baby to only have half of a heart and very enlarged organs. They told them that when the baby is born that is would only survive for an hour at most. It was heart wrenching to hear this. What do you say to that? All I could do was cry with her and give her a big hug. So, hug a complete stranger. You never know what someone else is going through in their life.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Adventures of Kim

Today we had nothing really going on, so I ran to the store, got the girls some cookies (to keep them quiet :) and hit the road. I had been wanting to drive up Yellow/Rose Canyon for a while now. I see cyclists going up all the time so I thought we would see what was so interesting. We came across some beautiful scenery and a few deer and even hopped out to snap a few pics. Mini roap trips are the best. thinking canvas right about now, hmm. Color or black and white?

Friday, July 22, 2011

Some days...

Some days I still wonder if we made a mistake buying this house we are in. It is so far out here. Yet it is such a beautiful area. We see deer everyday, we have a huge yard, a wonderful neighborhood to raise a family in. On the other hand, there are no kids (that we have met) that our kids can play with... Our water bill was 198.00 this month. I think the highest bill we ever had in our old house was 74.00. The yard is a ton of work. The drive to go anywhere take getting used to. We pay 64.00 a month towards an HOA and to be honest, i am not really sure where that money goes. Seems like a waste. Some days I wish we could just go back to March and rethink. Other days I feel like we really lucked out with all the equity we had in the old house to be able to be here now. This house will not be our last, just probably until the girls are out of highschool. Then, who knows where life will take us. Money is definately tighter. Not sure how long it will take us to really adjust to the new monthly budget... Today is just one of those days...

Monday, July 18, 2011

Quote of the day

Always make time for a friend in need even if you feel like you don't have any time for yourself. One day when the time comes that you need that extra love and support from someone it will be returned.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

“People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.”

If any of you keep in touch with me on a regular basis then you would know that my mom and stepdad got a divorce in March of 2010. It was no shocker to me, as it had been coming for sometime.

That year (2010) for Fathers Day I had not talked to my stepdad for awhile but I decided to be the bigger person. We made the effort to go to his apartment and see him and spend the day with him. Again after that, no effort was made on his end. That fall he moved back with my mom. We saw him at Christmas and again on Easter.

Then, come April 2011 he was gone again. He has yet to make any effort to see his two granddaughters, me, Derk, or my sister and brother. One day he will grow old and be a very lonely old man. I try to think back of any happy memories and really, there are not many. I do remember the times he treated my brother like a dog. Calling him "boy" instead of his actual name. Wacking him in the back of the head, making him gag down his dinner after he had already thrown it up. Weeks that passed where not a word was spoken between the two of us when I was growing up. Not sure why he was ever allowed to treat us that way. Oh and did I mention the times where we would be driving and he would get out of the car and start walking down the road. Us kids were left in the car screaming as my mom chased him down begging him to get back in and not to leave.

All the cruel things he said to my mother and all of the wonderful things he NEVER did for her. He was definately no role model. I would never want my son (if I had one) to every grow up and treat people the way he treated others. Even our friends were scared of him. He made no effort to be friendly or get to know any of them. He has 2 kids from a previous marriage who he has also disowned, as well as another grandchild from one of them who he has nothing to do with. He will be sorry one day, that I am sure of. When he is an old man and there is nobody there for him, but by then it will be too late.